Days 111 & 112
If you’re here before my website is complete, I hope you stick with me. I’ve hesitated with making the site live to start with as I wanted everything to be pretty and all settled before going live.
But that’s not how parenting works. It’s not how life works most times.
Today and yesterday have been rough days for me personally. Many people will I’m sure say “he’s just a cat” or something to that effect, but Oliver has been acting off. I won’t go into detail, but I took him to the vet and the news wasn’t great. Overall, inconclusive, and we’re taking him for further evaluation, but Oliver is my baby. I’ve had him since he was about 2 months old; my brother rescued him from the streets. He’s been my boy ever since.
Though everything is inconclusive and we’ll know more after seeing a specialist, this whole ordeal has made me feel like my heart was ripped out of my chest. This cat means the world to me and I’ve been forced to have to think about the what ifs of his health and his life going forward. I want to shut down and close myself off.
Since moving to Virginia and the changes that have come with that, I’ve been dreaming of the day we can buy a house here and I can build him his own catio. He can go in and out as he pleases and still be safe.
And now we’re here. In a moment in time where I can’t shut down and close off. I have to do the hard things. I have to show up for my son. For my husband. For both cats, especially Oliver. Nothing about this is pretty and all settled.
You don’t get do-overs with the most precious of moments. Time doesn’t stop until everything is perfectly lined up. Life keeps happening and it’s vital that we all grab onto the love and the beauty of it while we can.
“Life is what happens when you’re busy making other plans.” ~John Lennon